Partner for life

I received a call from my mum this afternoon.

everything was good until she asking me;

"Do you have a boyfriend yet?"
"No"

and there goes a long *unnecessary* advice that i start to piss off.
she mention my ex-es and how should i be worried at this age and why am i being too picky.

i was so piss off. why she has to say like that?
i know she is worried by why need to mention all of that?

tear begin to welled up in my eyes upon hanging up the phone. it feels like i let my parents down, to which i really don't like to do that. this is not an exam which i can study harder and hardest to make my parents proud, this is not. this is a quest of finding a partner of life, involving feelings, commitment, responsibilities.. something you can't push it.

i fail 3 relationship before. to which all of them i maintain and work hard in it.

but when it is not meant to be, it is not meant to be. you can push to pass in exam but you can't push someone's feeling. totally different.

i'm sad and frustrated.

i'm at point i don't want to look for him anymore.
i let him to come to me.
and if it is positive, progressing, it is then.
if it is not, it is not.

i wish it is easier.
i wish i can say to my mom...



"yes mom, i already have a boyfriend. he is....' *smiling proudly while mentioning all about him*

OT 2

Weird day today. I feel everyone is not in a good mood. Grumpy.

My biggest boss, Mr S keep naging and annoyed with my boss, Dr N for not retract properly, like one who never been in OT before (heck he has been many times, probably more than 2 years)

In return, Dr N was annoyed with me even when i adjusting the OT lamp. Which is the thing you should do before the operation begin. He was like,

"hey, what are you doing?"

"Err adjusting the lamp?"

"What for? You are not the one wo do the operation."

*walk away unsatisfactory  and continue preparing other things*

Weirdo. What a grumpy stone cold person.

Today I'm incharge for elective OT, meaning patients were given a date and planning for operation. Nevermind, not a big deal.

But my MO today who is knowingly known for a stone cold and i am today under his rude, unfriendly, cold order. 

Chillex boss. No point being angry or annoyed. It just make your work difficult. Haish

And to all my dear bosses,

Kindly be patience and control your anger or your cold behaviour or arrogant whatsoever.

It's so stressing to work with this kind of attitude.

I wish I'm shielding to all these nonsense.

Let me do my work. If you're not happy with it, teach me, show me the correct way. One day, i may become one of your college or may be will be above than you.

So respect, even though i am just a houseman. That won't take long, isn't?

P/s : Ah yes, I've been working in hospital for, almoat, reaching 4 months hehe 😁

Finally

I'll start working exactly next week TOMORROW!

Not sure what to expect.

Taking advices from seniors, here and there..

Hoping everything will be going just fine.

Hopefully, things will go well.

A brief introduction

Hi everyone!

I'm Anna. Just Anna. Not Anna Writing.

I just have a need to blog again; to make a note of my thoughts, experiences or anything that come across my mind. Hence, I am very welcoming everyone who is now visiting (and revisiting) this blog.

P/S: Some may contain fiction and non-fiction post. Teehee!